Numb

Yesterday, was day 2 of my sabbatical and I celebrated five non-depressed days in a row. Yesterday, I was overly productive. I was thinking of things to do for 13 weeks, which originally consisted of "lots of personal rest and rediscovering beauty - not work".

Well, both happened which is great and I encouraged myself by helping a couple friends, making travel plans, biking with my wife, meeting with carpenter to re-design the patio, encouraging and hanging with my elderly dad, investigating some new non-radio work ideas (uh oh - too many), great conversation with an old friend, offering to consult another Christian station for a few days - just for fun. "Ambitious and productive" would describe yesterday.

I ended the day, late at night, my wife in bed, as I watched "Life As A House". I really loved the movie but it put me to sleep with mixed feelings. (Sorry, no movie review. Too numb to think about it.)

I was supposed to relax on sabbatical. Now I just feel overwhelmed from yesterday's activities and stupid for being so productive.

I think I'll take the dog for a walk and forget about yesterday.

(Uh, I also didn't start my day with God.)