I'm Tired. I Can't Find The Prize

Devotions. I'm reading a book called "Live Loved" by Max Lucado. It's like a "Daily Bread" devo - short, two pages, scripture, prayer and thought. It's relevant and I often dig beyond the actual devo.

Today was a God moment. Before I cracked it open, I started journaling my thoughts. "It's so hard to be a Christian", I wrote. Hmmm. I've been a Christian for almost 25 years - shouldn't it be easier, not harder?

Maybe because I know more about God, the bar keeps going up. Or maybe I'm just tired of trying. Not trying to be a Christian - I am a Christian. I'm tired of fighting off the junk, only to have another moment of junk jump in front of me, day after day.

Then I read the devo, which talked about giving up, life is hard, the prize is too far away, I can't make it, etc.

Sometimes it seems as if we have more struggles than strength and are temped to quit.

When that happens, and the pity party is done, I gotta try again. Give grace one more time. Be generous one more time. Encourage one more soul.

Philippians 3:13 - I press toward the goal for the prize of the call of God.